Ep 160. Finding Freedom in Recovery, with Ash Murray
Sun Feb 01 2026
In this special episode, Ash is joined by her longtime friend Ash Murray. For years, both women battled addiction silently, only sharing the full depths of their stories with one another after coming into recovery. Today, Ash Murray is the Eating Disorder Lead and Therapist at The Wave Clinic in Malaysia, with her expertise grounded not just in study, but in lived experience.
Ash opens up about her personal journey through eating disorders and alcohol addiction, sharing what recovery has truly looked like beyond the surface. From the isolating depths of illness which nearly took her life, to the slow rebuilding of trust, self-worth, and connection, she reflects on the pivotal role that rehab, honesty, healing and self-care have played in finding lasting freedom.
Together, they explore the intersection of therapy and lived experience, how vulnerability and empathy can become powerful tools for healing both self and others. They unpack the mental health challenges that intensified during the COVID-19 pandemic, and the importance of ongoing support in maintaining balance and wellbeing.
Episode chapter:
00:00 Introduction to Ashley Murray's Journey
02:57 Life in Malaysia and Work at the Wave Clinic
05:46 Navigating COVID-19 in Treatment
08:21 The Impact of COVID-19 on Mental Health
11:08 A Photo that Represents Struggles
13:55 The Super Yacht Experience and Its Consequences
16:27 The Turning Point: Seeking Help
19:22 Life in Bali and the Struggle with Addiction
22:16 The Rock Bottom Moment
24:49 Desperation and the Path to Recovery
27:08 The Turning Point: Reaching Out for Help
31:53 Childhood Struggles: The Roots of Eating Disorders
44:03 Escaping Reality: The Need to Hide
48:25 Facing the Truth: A Journey of Self-Discovery
54:28 The Struggle of Surrendering Control
57:02 The Complexity of Eating Disorders
59:13 The Power of Intervention
01:00:41 Transformation Through Therapy
01:04:11 Building Trust in Recovery
01:06:15 The Importance of Honesty
01:08:57 Setting Boundaries for Recovery
01:13:03 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life
Connect with Ash through:
https://thewaveclinic.com/
https://www.instagram.com/thewaveclinic/
Follow and connect with Ash on:
Instagram @ashbutterss
TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb
Website www.ashbutterss.com
Upcoming Workshops:
A Return To You | One Day Retreat
Sunday 22nd February, 2026
Tickets available here.
Join Ash on retreat in 2026!
The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026
Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026
Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!
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In this special episode, Ash is joined by her longtime friend Ash Murray. For years, both women battled addiction silently, only sharing the full depths of their stories with one another after coming into recovery. Today, Ash Murray is the Eating Disorder Lead and Therapist at The Wave Clinic in Malaysia, with her expertise grounded not just in study, but in lived experience. Ash opens up about her personal journey through eating disorders and alcohol addiction, sharing what recovery has truly looked like beyond the surface. From the isolating depths of illness which nearly took her life, to the slow rebuilding of trust, self-worth, and connection, she reflects on the pivotal role that rehab, honesty, healing and self-care have played in finding lasting freedom. Together, they explore the intersection of therapy and lived experience, how vulnerability and empathy can become powerful tools for healing both self and others. They unpack the mental health challenges that intensified during the COVID-19 pandemic, and the importance of ongoing support in maintaining balance and wellbeing. Episode chapter: 00:00 Introduction to Ashley Murray's Journey 02:57 Life in Malaysia and Work at the Wave Clinic 05:46 Navigating COVID-19 in Treatment 08:21 The Impact of COVID-19 on Mental Health 11:08 A Photo that Represents Struggles 13:55 The Super Yacht Experience and Its Consequences 16:27 The Turning Point: Seeking Help 19:22 Life in Bali and the Struggle with Addiction 22:16 The Rock Bottom Moment 24:49 Desperation and the Path to Recovery 27:08 The Turning Point: Reaching Out for Help 31:53 Childhood Struggles: The Roots of Eating Disorders 44:03 Escaping Reality: The Need to Hide 48:25 Facing the Truth: A Journey of Self-Discovery 54:28 The Struggle of Surrendering Control 57:02 The Complexity of Eating Disorders 59:13 The Power of Intervention 01:00:41 Transformation Through Therapy 01:04:11 Building Trust in Recovery 01:06:15 The Importance of Honesty 01:08:57 Setting Boundaries for Recovery 01:13:03 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life Connect with Ash through: https://thewaveclinic.com/ https://www.instagram.com/thewaveclinic/ Follow and connect with Ash on: Instagram @ashbutterss TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb Website www.ashbutterss.com Upcoming Workshops: A Return To You | One Day Retreat Sunday 22nd February, 2026 Tickets available here. Join Ash on retreat in 2026! The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026 Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!