The Dad Project

What happens when a man achieves everything he dreamed of and then loses the very thing that gave his life meaning? Paul Sampson played 17 years of professional rugby. He was the fastest schoolboy in the country. He earned his England cap before he was 21. From the outside, he had it all—speed, talent, recognition and a career most could only dream of. But behind the tries and the caps, Paul was carrying something far heavier than any trophy. When his father passed away, Paul didn't just lose his dad—he lost his anchor, his voice, his reason for pushing through. Rugby became the medication that kept him going. And when he retired, it felt like his father died all over again. One Monday morning, Paul sat on his sofa with his head in his hands, crying uncontrollably. His wife walked in and asked him what was wrong. His answer: "I wish I knew." This is one of the most honest conversations about life after sport, identity loss, grief, mental health and what it truly means to rebuild when everything you've known is stripped away. In this episode Paul speaks openly about: Growing up with a father who saw his potential and pushed him constructively Being called into the full England squad at 17 with no preparation Making his England debut against South Africa in torrential rain 14 operations and nearly a year out with a devastating knee injury The loneliness of injury and needing support he didn't know how to ask for Losing his father at 28 and using rugby to numb the grief Retiring from rugby and feeling like his dad had died all over again Breaking down on his sofa and being given an ultimatum—get help or lose his marriage Therapy, feeling heard for the first time and discovering he was a good person The dangerous relief of suicidal thoughts and believing he was a burden Divorce, financial collapse and sleeping in his car to keep coaching kids Being betrayed by a journalist who twisted his story for tabloid headlines Starting a Master's degree with £80 in his account Training as a psychotherapist to help other men off the hook The relationship with his two boys and what it means to love them like his dad loved him Why men feel like burdens and how that bright idea is temporary confusion Asking the universe for help and refusing to stay silent for the sake of ego (00:00:00) Introduction: Breaking the Silence on Men's Mental Health (00:02:30) The Making of a Champion: Training With Dad From Age Six (00:13:00) Called Up at 17: The Surreal England Squad Experience (00:17:09) The Pressure of Performance: When Relief Replaced Hunger (00:23:45) Fourteen Operations: The Physical and Mental Toll of Injury (00:34:26) Losing His Hero: When Dad Passed Away at 28 (00:41:39) Head in Hands: The Monday Morning Breakdown (00:49:39) The Dangerous Relief: When Ending It All Felt Like a Solution (00:46:39) Therapy Saved My Life: Learning to Feel Heard and Validated (00:54:48) Betrayed by the Press: When Vulnerability Gets Weaponized (00:58:38) Divorce and Co-Parenting: Navigating Fractured Family Dynamics (01:11:50) Eighty Pounds and a Dream: Starting Over at Rock Bottom (01:27:02) Sleeping in the Car: The Reality Behind the Rebuild (01:08:29) The Lightbulb Moment: Understanding Attachment and Meaning (01:18:07) Fatherhood Through Loss: Loving His Sons the Way Dad Loved Him (01:11:50) Finding Purpose: From Rugby Pitch to Harley Street Therapist (01:26:32) The Power of Vulnerability: Why Sharing Your Story Matters (01:29:06) Temporary Confusions: A Message to Men in Crisis "I couldn't quite put my finger on it, but I was feeling an overwhelming sense of loss. My wife said to me, 'What the f**k is wrong with you?' And my response was, 'I wish I knew.'" Paul's story proves that success doesn't protect you from suffering. Fame doesn't shield you from grief. And when life strips away everything you thought made you who you are, that's when you discover who you truly are. If you're struggling with identity after a career ends, grieving someone you can't let go of, or trying to rebuild when everything feels broken—this episode will show you that it's possible to come back stronger, wiser and more aligned than ever before.🔔 Subscribe for more honest conversations about men's mental health, grief, identity and the courage it takes to rebuild.Follow Paul SampsonInstagram: @paulsampson15 LinkedIn: @paulsampsonukWebsite: true-north.spaceFollow The Dad ProjectInstagram: @thedadprojecthqTikTok: @thedadprojecthqYouTube: @thedadprojecthqX (Twitter): @thedadprojecthqLinkedIn: The Dad Project#MensMentalHealth #RugbyMentalHealth #Grief #IdentityLoss #LifeAfterSport #SuicidePrevention #TheDadProject #Fatherhood #EnglandRugby #HealingJourney #RealStories #PaulSampson #BreakTheSilence